21/12/09

lol, não ligues
decidi escrever alguns dos meus pensamentos no meu blog
ja estive a pensar em fazer isto a mais tempo, pk assim tenho uma utilidade pra ele..
so que estao em ingles
procura um dicionario.


The first ppl that should know that i am diabetic are my parents and my brother. Fucking Hell!!! My Brother doesn't think! I'm not a doll, I have feelings. Hes not joking, and if he is he shouldnt be because it hurts. I need to eat from time to time, so dont say that i should of have eaten, or 'bad luck' or 'oh well' because i can have hypos at anytime for not eating, and you should know that. I dont admit that ppl who live close to me and that have been with me all my life dont remember, or talk like that to me. I hate tyou when you do that. I cant hold on to my feelings and hold back my tears. I had to burst. Im not a very deep well. I can be deep, but i fill up too.
I fill up until I flood.
Now I am on my own in the kitchen. Ill go to bed soon, but I am really worried about my school work. I only have two weeks to do everything and study. Well, not really two weeks b cos a whole weekend and a whole day have gone, and probably tomorrow I won't do anything. On day 24, maybe 25, 26 and maybe 27. I definately wont do anything because it's christmas, and my grandparents celebrate their 60th wedding anniversary. My whole family will be here. i cant wait.
I'm also worried about the violin, I have to practise and know the music by heart for christmas. It's easier to know the music by heart because then I dont have to have papers around, or I dont have to look for the page.
(...)
Anyway, I dont want to think about any of that anymore. I just want to write. Lol, I like writing, because it makes me feel better. I already feel better, from a moment ago, but it was not because of writing, I had dinner, waited a long time and now I am writing again.
Anyway, I am going to bed now.
Good night.

(Written on 21/12/09)